the way things are

Published on January 27, 2012 in life and me. 0 Comments Tags: .

Since Jan 1, 2012, my patience have been put to the test. Over the last 26 days, there are times were I manage to keep my cool, but there are moments where staying cool is just beyond possible.

*sigh*

I would love to say that life’s a bitch. BUT, everything that has happened so far I believe is for a better tomorrow. Or maybe a better me for tomorrow. The load of crap that has been thrown right at my face thus far may not be the worst things yet. Having said that, I got really worn out today for some reason. Perhaps it is all the accumulated stress.

I just need to get some breathing space. Somewhere. Maybe tonight when I go  to bed.

All I can say is BRING IT ON, Life! I know whatever good and bad things that happened, happened for a reason. It is the experience that matters. And as last as long I stay true to myself, I’m good.

All good.

Good night.

p/s: Happy Birthday Mum. I love you. And no matter how grown up I am, I will always need a Mum. Always.

 

dying

Published on January 17, 2012 in life and me. 0 Comments Tags: , .

When we rejoice over the birth of a new life, we sometimes forget that death is set to be waiting at the end of this life. Dying is a part of being alive.

A lot of us have not been acquainted with Death. In fact, we fear Death. Sometimes we are angry with Death. To be honest, none of us will ever know how it feels like to die, until it actually happen. I’ve heard stories that it is scary, that you will have no control over your body as your soul leaves, that you will still have to make choices even after you die. I mean, I don’t even know how it’s going to feel like if there’s no me, inside me!!

Do I fear death? Hell yea I do. I mean, I wouldn’t want to die now.

Nonetheless, I have been constantly reminding myself that Death is part of Life. I will never know when Death decides to walk up my door, knock on it and say ‘Hey Chiao Ju, it’s time to go’. I’m sure I’ll cry. I’m sure I’ll be sad. I’m sure I’ll grieve for my death. I would definitely need time to do all those things. After I’m done grieving, I’m sure I’ll live my numbered days to its fullest.

Everything happens for a reason. However, I’m learning to accept the fact that sometimes, we will never ever know the reason. I use to ask a lot of why questions about life. I think sometimes I still do. But I’m learning to accept the fact that life is as such. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not bowing down to “this is my crappy life, live with it” concept. No. I believe that certain decisions I make can change the course of my life.  Having said that, I’m not going to dwell over searching for the answer to my why question. Sometimes, it’s not all that worth it.

The course I have to undertake today, has everything to do with my past. Past lives I mean. Karma is at play. What goes around, comes back around. Writing all this doesn’t make me a pessimist. It is me learning to accept what life is. How you live your life is all up to you. Yes, karma will interfere once in a while, but again, karma has nothing to do with anyone else but us. We plant those karma seeds. We can’t blame anyone for it.

Oh well. May we have a good week before the Chinese New Year break.

twozeroonetwo

Published on January 15, 2012 in me. 0 Comments Tags: .

I can’t believe 2012 is here. 2011 breezes through like the wind. Scary to be honest. Nonetheless, 2011 has been good. I’ve learned about people around me but more importantly, I’ve learned a lot about ME. So like I say it’s all good.

Although 2012 just started, I know that 2012 is awesome, coz it is up to me to make awesome.

Happy New Year 2012! :D

moral – nil.

Published on December 26, 2011 in life, me, people and thoughts. 0 Comments Tags: , .

So our society is now filled with highly educated people, smart geniuses walking down the street. There’s just one problem – most of us don’t even know how to be a human being a.k.a having proper ethics. We suck when it comes to just being a human, with all the necessary kindness, empathy and being ethically proper. I mean we are a bunch of highly educated people. Since when should moral be thrown out the window once we get educated?

I’m not saying people in the past are not engrossed with power, fame and money. It’s a human thing. We have this greed growing inside of us and if we don’t stop it, it grows out of hand. What I’m saying is, it’s disgusting to see how humans these days being so immoral when it comes to treating other people. Why? It’s not like we are ask to donate 80% of what we earn to charity. All we are asked to do is to be nice. Genuinely. Not faking it, not being an ass, just being another human being. What’s so difficult about that?

The group of people that disgust me most, is the group that has participated in learning about the teachings of a religion. The political issues that you see happening at a buddhist temple or a church is more than the issues you see in our government and at work combined. It’s sick. I thought these people who has learned would know what it’s like to treat another human with great respect, no?

I don’t know. It’s sad. Yes, I understand that everyone is selfish. But I don’t believe in living a live without proper ethics. It’s actually more tiring to do bad things than to do good. So why not do good?

Well, this is just my own thoughts.

hope

Published on December 21, 2011 in life and me. 0 Comments Tags: .

It is tough sometimes not knowing for sure if the decision you make today would be for the best when tomorrow comes. I mean we can’t tell what the future will unfold. Every single decision we make today, big or small, will shape our life story. Hence, it annoys sometimes having to wait for the future to come in order for me to look back to connect the dots. Yes, call me impatient, but I do feel helpless sometimes not knowing for sure if this is the right direction I’m going.

And then that’s when hope steps in. I think we all have to have faith and trust that everything will be okie in the end. It will be. I’m sure. We are here to learn and to write our life story. I’m all for the writing my own life story and that’s why I’m really cautious when I’m making certain decisions. But there is only so much I can do. At the end of the day, I would turn to hope.

It’s all good. 2012 is just around the corner, and I hope it would be better than 2011.

it’s all good

Published on December 14, 2011 in love and me. 0 Comments Tags: , .

Being in a relationship is not all that easy. There are definitely sweet moments, but there are moments where you just feel like you want to pull your hairs out and scream. Ultimately, it rolls back to love. And having that feeling of loving that person, you’ll want to make things work. The last thing you want is to go on your separate ways if the feeling is right. If both parties are true to themselves and they respect each other, everything will work out just fine. No hiding, no lying, just pure honesty and love.

In the end, it’s about being by each other, being in love with each other everyday, holding hands and staying goofy, for the next 50 years or more.

sometimes it’s best not to know, or is it?

Published on December 6, 2011 in love and me. 0 Comments Tags: .

People say that being in a relationship, there are things that are better left unknown. Like a lie. Or a hidden secret. If one doesn’t know, it won’t hurt as much, right?

No. It hurts equally bad. Especially if it is a lie.

Being in a relationship is hard work. Both parties have to want to be in it enough to work towards making and-they-live-happily-ever-after come true. Should one give up, it is pretty much the end of the relationship.

Like I always say, it rolls down to how much you love that person. If he is worth it to you.

*sigh*

 

i’m cominggggg!

Published on December 2, 2011 in hobbies, me and stuff. 2 Comments Tags: .

:) Absolute cuteness :)

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