Monthly Archive for March, 2009

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why the selfishness?

I just got off the phone with mel.

Why are humans selfish? Even around people whom you love? Or whom you claim you love?

Sometimes, it has nothing to do with the things you do for a person. Nor has it got to do if that person loves you or not. You still find that person being really selfish towards you. It is merely a human reaction — I need to be selfish, even if I love you. It is always for the betterment of myself first. Never others. I don’t care how you feel first, as last as long I am not threatened, I am not hurt, I will be fine.

Why? I don’t understand.

I can be selfish at work, coz sometimes it is all about surviving in the society, but when it comes to personal things, love relationships, family relationships, people who mean the world to me, I can almost never be selfish.

It is really sad, when people get all selfish, even towards people they love. Why that happens — I really don’t know.

Maybe someone can tell me.

in support of Earth Hour

earth hour

The world’s global election – to fight global warming.

I’ve signed up for this and will be switching off this March 28, 2009; 8.30pm to 9.30pm.

Interested? Click on the sign-up button on the right pane of my blog.

Read more about Earth Hour here.

Remember, a small act can go a long way. If only we are all united.

a need to rant

I need to rant. I have no one to rant to these days, so I’ll rant to the world.

For the past week or two, I have;

  1. grown to be overly pissed with my job and with this crazy economic downturn, I can’t do much about it.
  2. got to know that I will be away for 3 weeks in April, traveling to none other than my BELOVED motherland — the best part of all this is I get back to M’sia Apr24 and my exam is on Apr25.
  3. learned that sissyboys will always be sissyboys — pathetic (to read more, pls refer to my previous post).
  4. turned into someone who is very much aware of her spendings — very much.
  5. been constantly telling myself to be patient with certain situation that means the world to me, although it may hurt to read & experience certain stuff – at least the whole situation is moving; slowly.
  6. constipation and constant headaches.
  7. recently been more stressed out that I’ve ever been since 2006.

…and today it’s Friday the 13th. I wonder if my day will be jinxed.

Just for kicks, I have this pinned at the entrance to my cube. I have one hell of a pissed-off face, just like hoops… but I’m still coated with sweetness. *all smiles*

sweetness

I think I need a hug. :|

when guys decide to wear the emotional skirts

[WARNING] This post is merely my personal point of view. You don’t have to read them. You don’t have to agree with them. If you think that you’re the type of person who gets insulted easily, pls click the red “x” on the top right corner of your screen (if you’re on windows) or the red button on your top left corner of your screen (if you’re on mac). If you are not, pls feel free to read on. Thank you.

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It annoys the crap out of me when guys decide to wear skirts and start getting all emotional and sensitive about the most petty stuff in the world a.k.a acting like a girl. I won’t be quoting names in my post coz the last thing I need is to be sued in court for emotionally assulting a man.

I’m a girl and I dare say I know perfectly well how most girls function. Although we can be tough and do stuff men does, but there is one unique part of us that no one can take away and it is a part most girls won’t deny. Most girls (note the most) are intwined with emotions and sensitivity. We are creatures who can be illogical at times, with some of our decisions being made by following the heart and feelings. We hurt easily by words that are perceived to be harsh in the world of women. Generally, this world is ours.

Until today, I still believe that guys don’t live in that little world of ours. But my beliefs have been shaken by some incidents I have encoutered over the past few months. I’m not exactly sure when did we gals invited that few men to join our little world; and may I add, these are supposedly straight men in their 30s. Yes, we did ask men to be a little sensitive over our feelings, especially in a love relationship, but not to the extend of being a sissy.

Straight gals don’t dig sissy guys. At least I don’t dig sissy guys. One more thing; although a friend once said that I cannot associate age with maturity, but I have this feeling that the maturity level of the brains of these sissy guys has an invert relationship with their age; as they grow older, their maturity level decreases. Yes, 30 year-old men acting like 14 year-old boys who has just reached puberty. :|

I’m sorry ppl, but I’m just completely annoyed. I’m no bigger person nor am I a lovely great angel, but at least I’m a gal. Why not you guys start acting like a man with your you-know-what.

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[Disclaimer] Like I say, these are my point of views. You don’t have to agree with them. I have warned you right from the start. If you think you’re not an easily insulted person, went on to reading this and somehow, felt insulted, don’t say I didn’t warn you.

Back to work.

Happy Women’s Day

Today, a friend couldn’t understand why there’s a day for women but not men.

I say coz most men are arses. :) (note the most — I didn’t say all). So we don’t celebrate International Arses’ Day.

Anyway, I suppose this day is really a day to celebrate the success and greatness of all women in the world. It is a celebration to show that women can go to great heights achieving what they want despite being deemed as the weaker sex of the 2 since forever.

March 8 – Happy International Women’s Day. Remember, you women are great! YAY for Women! :D

u know it when

Just when you thought that it is time to give up, you look over at the person who means the world to you, laying on the bed, sleeping, giving out that silent snore, and you catch yourself smiling. It’s a smile that melts your heart and makes you all warm and fussy inside.

Still happens even after it has been quite a while.

Just my thought of what love feels like sometimes. Comments?

not enough ka-ching$$$

There are no signs of the economy reviving itself to becoming better for the world and there’s really nothing much we can do  about it. Companies are laying-off employees, shares are hitting rock bottom, investments shown on papers are merely a piece of paper — we’re so totally screwed! (I was looking at the shares I have in hand — everything is underwater. every single share!!! gosh. phhhffftttt!!!)

The economic downturn is cyclic. When the shares were at its all time high earlier last year, lotsa analysts and experts have said that this huge bubble will burst soon. True enough it did. Has it hit rock bottom? Don’t know, and I doubt it has. I’m no analyst (and my knowledge on economics is so rusty it’s unbelievable) but I’ve read several papers written way back when I was completing my final year project about the cyclic pattern of the economy. One of the many papers interestingly shows that the economy (or at least the share market) will be at its lowest point during the year of the Tiger, following the chinese animal zodiac cycle. Year 2009 is only the year of the Ox. The year of the Tiger will not come until year 2010. Now, if that study is true… things will only get worse by time. Gosh.

Anyway, is the economic turmoil and recession (or some believed that we are in the midst of depression) reflected in the personal consumption patterns of the society? Well, at least the people in Malaysia? I don’t see quite a lot of changes. I don’t feel the hype of people cutting down on their spendings; eating out at expensive restaurants, or spending on a certain entertainment, shopping etc. Recently, when I was on my usual rounds of blog hopping, I still see lotsa pretty interesting habits; I see ppl hanging out at nice hotel pubs, eating awesome food at fancy dancy restaurants, spending money on new gadgets and I thought to myself — what economic downturn??

Hang on a minute… I MUST THE ONLY ONE WHO’S BROKE! :| CRAP!!

I’m one lucky bugger coz I don’t have much commitments. No car loans, no housing loans. The biggest thing I’m paying off right now is my school fee. The rest are rather petty stuff; small household bills, insurance, allowances etc. I’m honestly grateful to be this lucky.

Still, I’m careful with my spendings these days. I think twice going to fancy restaurants. Make that thrice. My parents are going to hooiju’s commencement ceremony and I want to be able to contribute a little to their trip. I know I won’t be able to contribute much and how I wish I would have the ability to contribute and give them everything but knowing that I can’t, I would still like to chip-in a little. I know how good that would make them feel — hence making me happy. :)

Since November last year, I don’t remember buying anything for myself (unless buying toothpaste, shower gel and other toiletry stuff counts) [UPDATED: alright, I just recalled I bought myself 2 books last week. THAT has got to count]. I don’t feel sad or anything, coz I think I have all that I need. I’m thankful. There may be things I wish I could own, but again, if the current one is working absolutely fine, there’s no point spending another few hundreds getting a new one. I’ve got friends who recently asked me to go on holidays and how I wish I could go but then again, spending the money on my parents would make me feel so much better. I can still go for a getaway nearer to home, right? It doesn’t have to be far — what matter is who you’re going with. :)

So yea. I have a feeling that this economic downturn is gonna be worst than the 1997/98 Asian economic crisis. We can only hope for the best. It doesn’t hurt to have extra cash in ur wallet every now and then during these times. Let’s all hope for the best.

p/s: crap — income tax period is coming. LAZY!

starstruck

Ever since I could remember, I’ve not really been crazy CRAZY about any artistes. But then again, there are certain characters in movies that makes me go all gu-ga. In random orders, here are some of my favorites.

Brad Pitt as the Angel of Death in Meet Joe Black. Brad is without a doubt good looking. But Brad in Meet Joe Black – *speechless*. With Meet Joe Black being one of my all time favorite love movies and the Angel of Death looking so crazily gorgeous, how can you not be starstruck?

Matthew Mcconaughey as Benjamin Barry in How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days. I’ve always loved the look of Matthew Mcconaughey. I think it’s the hair. Yes, it has got to be the hair. I love him in this movie. Oh, and in Fool’s Gold as well. He’s so… HIM. So boy next door. Yea, he made me starstruck. *haha*

Orlando Bloom as Drew Baylor in Elizabethtown. He looks *all smiles* fantastic. :) He’s so OMG in the movie. A little lost at first… but in the end… :) . Starstruck. :P Oh and I love his hair too.

My starstruck likes is not just limited to these 3 guys. There are many more.

Somehow… the one that I still don’t get is the lastest craze for Edward Cullen — Robert Pattison in the movie Twilight (okie. from the pic, his hair looks really nice). Maybe it’s too early to judge, coz I have not watched the movie. Rena Cullen constantly says that I will be one of them soon — after Edward Cullen bites me. It’s not just this mother of 3 who’s all starstruck by Edward Cullen. Another friend of mine, whom I would not have guessed would get this crazy about a character has also been Cullenized. Yes, she has become one of them. At one point, all I hear is girls saying that they are dying to be bitten by a vampire. Well, Edward Cullen type vampire to be exact.

I think I should make an effort to go watch Twilight. Or at least start reading Twilight, instead of reading this book about an emotional gal trying to find her way back by eating, praying and loving (Eat, Pray Love – it’s a nice book no doubt — a little emotional, so I don’t quite read it when I’m emotionally unstable but it’s still a good read). So yea, back to Twilight.

I promised Rena Cullen I would watched it, but Mrs Cullen #105472, if you’re reading this… I’m sorry. I can’t get ahold of the movie yet. I will try to get it ASAP okie? :)



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