Monthly Archive for August, 2009

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what now?

Published on August 18, 2009 in life, love, me and thoughts. 2 Comments Tags: .

Do you know what it’s like to give your whole self to a person, and your whole heart to boot, until you’ve got nothing left to give – and then realize that it still isn’t what they need?

-Jodi Picoult

Perhaps we are not what they need.

Is it true if you let love lead the way, you can never go wrong? Is it true that with love, it would be best to learn to listen to your heart and not with your head?

This is what a gal who has been married for a year wrote;

I learned that love tells me to say sorry but my head tells me to say I’m right. I learned that love tells me to hug but my head tells me to pout. I learned that love tells me to clean the kitchen anyway and my head tells me that I already did it today. Love tells me to give the bigger slice, to smile, to do it anyway, to be kind, to be forgiving, to be patient. And the person that taught me all this? My incredible, wise, sweet, thoughtful, kind, funny, and forgiving husband. He taught me how to listen to my heart. And for this I will be eternally grateful to him.

-Mufti (via tumblr)

I think if you’ve been following my love posts in this blog, this would have been the exact person I would be. If you truly love someone, you don’t mind picking up after him when he leaves trails of dirty clothes behind. You wouldn’t mind giving him the better stuff coz you always believe that he deserves the best life can give him. When he’s sick and cranky and he snaps at you, you’ll always find a way in your heart to forgive him, one way or another. When you truly love someone, you will realize that the amount of things you do for that person is always insufficient and you wish you could just do more.

All of these will only happen, if and only if you truly love him. Not the I’m-not-sure-if-he’s-the-one-but-maybe-he-is type love. True, genuine, selfless love. The silly kind where you hope for nothing in return.

Oh well.

pride of our nation

Published on August 17, 2009 in stuff and travel. 7 Comments Tags: , , .

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Ahh.. the pride of our nation, the Petronas Twin Towers. I’ve always been fond of the design of this tower. It looks absolutely beautiful, especially when all the lights lit up at night. Just lovely.

I’ve heard of the skybridge visit for quite awhile, but I’ve never really make an effort to go check it out. During my last visit to KL, I tried to get the tickets twice but failed miserably. This round, I was most determined to wake up earlier, getting myself there before 8.30am, in hope of getting tickets for the earlier time slot.

Mum and I arrived at the skybridge ticket counter at 8.15am and was shocked at how huge the crowd was. *gulp*. It didn’t look promising coz a little more than 100 people were already queuing in line!

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Longest queue ever. Out of the people in the crowd, I think mum and I may be the only locals queuing up. I wonder how many of us had actually gone up to check out the skybridge.

Anyway, by 8.30am, the line started to move very slowly. We were in queue for approximately an hour and a half before it’s our turn to get the tickets. Our time slot – 4.15pm. I looked at my watch and it’s only 9.45am. I have to kill 6 hours of time, in KLCC. How is that even possible? (I’m no shopping queen).

So we loitered around, ate, shopped, ate some more, and it was 4pm. *woot*. By then, my lower back was hurting way bad. Nevertheless I was still rather excited.

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Here’s the entrance. That’s apparently some eggs found. It’s 200 million-year-old. I didn’t go check it out at the Petrosains Center, but if you’ve been there, let me know what’s up with the eggs.

After taking our passes, we were led to a small auditorium to watch a 7-min 3D presentation on Petronas and the Petronas Twin Towers. Nothing spectacular (the 3D presentation I mean) and it made both me and mum a little dizzy. The show ended and we were led to go through security and then it’s to the lift! :)

The ride up to the 41st floor was pretty impressive. The lift operates on some turbo speed which gets us up there in a mere 41 seconds. Surprisingly, you don’t feel the pressure. No clearing of the ears are needed. Interesting.

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Tadaa! Finally we’re on the skybridge! We only had 10mins to spare on the bridge. I took some pics, check out the architecture of the construction of the bridge and before you know it, it’s time to leave. *sheesh*. Well, I must say that the view of KL was lovely. I think it would have been lovelier at night.

Whole tour was only a mere 20mins. Before leaving, we stopped at the exhibition hall to check out some stuff. One of the things I did was to see how tall the Petronas Twin Towers are compared to my height.

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Hmmm… 267 times eh? Wait — I’m 1.72m! Then again, that 3cm wouldn’t make much of a difference to the results now would it? ;)

Was it worth it? With the amount time spent and my back so close to breaking at the end of the day, I still think it is worth it.

For those who wants to go, remember to get your butt there as early as possible. Tickets go off pretty fast. I bet you wouldn’t want to go all the way to KLCC to have this sign greet you at the entrance now would you?

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Click here for more info on the visiting period.

If you have one day to spare in KL, just go. I still think it’s worth seeing it — at least once.

waiting

Published on August 15, 2009 in me. 9 Comments

yup, still waiting.

*silence*

seeking acceptance

Published on August 13, 2009 in emotions, life, love and thoughts. 5 Comments Tags: , .

Read this quote;

I think everybody just needs someone to believe in them. Someone to think they’re beautiful, someone to think they’re amazing. That way, people may actually start believing in themselves.

-unknown (a reblog from tumblr)

Here’s what the little voice inside my head was screaming when I first read this;

This can’t be true. It’s all about self-esteem and self-confidence. SELF. These positive vibes should be generated from within us and not from others. Other people can always think otherwise when it comes to judging the greatness of our work, but as last as long I have self-confidence in what I do and I know that I’m right for the most cases based on my knowledge and specialties, I can then look within me and generate that optimism and confidence and have those words slapped across my forehead — with my head held high that is.

*little voice in chiaoju’s head doing a little dance*

—a minute later—

*little voice stop dancing*

*little voice knew that’s not always true*

*little voice is all quiet now, feeling a little melodramatic*

Give it a thought for a moment. I believe that one way or another, consciously or subconsciously, in some parts of our lives, we are seeking for acceptance from someone else besides ourselves. We want someone else to believe in us. Simply to make us feel better. Simply to give us that boost of positive vibe for us to feel good about ourselves again.

Is it wrong?

*shrugs shoulder*

*little voice is still being quiet*

In some parts of our lives, maybe we do need this. I bet that most of us did seek for some sort of approval from someone else at some point in our lives, consciously or subconsciouly, directly or indirectly (If you haven’t, you’re absolutely awesome — and I’m saying this in a non-sarcastic way). Then again, this whole seeking-acceptance thingy, it is somewhat like someone else lending us a helping hand at our lowest moments. Although self-confidence comes from within coz no one can motivate us but ourselves, but nevertheless, we need a little push sometimes, don’t you think?

I still believe that everybody needs somebody sometimes.

IMHO that is.

Toodles.

p/s: If you’re interested in reading a reply of someone else to this quote, click here. The thoughts are pretty similar to what my little voice was saying. Only difference was my little voice sounded a little more mellow. ;)

forgiveness

Published on August 10, 2009 in life, love and thoughts. 6 Comments Tags: , .

The people that comes in and out of our lives aren’t always pleasant. Some people hurts us emotionally, leaving us a wound that never did heal. Those people who are able to leave such a huge impact are usually people whom are dear to us.

The wound stayed with us. 10 years, 20 years, it somehow just stayed. For some, when we face certain obstacles or difficulties in life, we look back in time and start blaming those people who have created those wounds, stating the fact that if the past had not happened in such a bad way, we will not be forced to face the obstacles we are facing today. As much as these people have hurt us, we have carried them with us on our journey through life.

Why carry this burden in the first place? Wouldn’t life feel better without these burdens? Read the monk story here.

So these people have hurt us. So they’ve taken a knife and stab us countless times deep into our hearts. So they say they love us but their actions say otherwise. And so, if we keep blaming them for the things they’ve done previously to have resulted in a tough life that we are going through right now, the one who’s really suffering is us. It is not them.

Learn to forgive. The power of forgiveness is so overwhelming it does wonders. When one learns to forgive, you learn to eventually forget. So they’ve done nasty things. But those nasty things are in the past. Never did one person say we have to bring those past with us. Some are worth keeping, others, just chucked them aside in the attic.

If there’s still a slightest feeling or emotions in you towards them, it’s probably because they still matter — no?

It’s always easier said than done, but one has got to try if one wants to be happy right?

to do > to say

Published on August 10, 2009 in life, love and me. 5 Comments Tags: , .

It is most important to do what you say coz action most definitely speaks louder than words. Otherwise, it’s better left unsaid. More than often do we keep throwing out word after word from our mouth, but there are no sign of any actions taken to prove the words that have been said were indeed true.

Actions that I’m referring to aren’t huge-2-carat-diamond-ring type actions. It could be a hug. It could be a peck on the forehead. It could be giving a helping hand to complete a task. It could be lending a shoulder to cry on. It could be sitting down, just listening. It could be holding hands together, ever so proudly. It could be a lot of things.

Remember, say what you mean. Words have got to be turned into actions. It is when those actions are taken, do we then say the words we say matters.

For this, I leave you a quote from one of my favorite author, Nicholas Sparks;

You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter.

-Nicholas Sparks

Nite. It has been a pleasant weekend. Thanks.

the trauma returns

Published on August 8, 2009 in me, people and stuff. 4 Comments Tags: , , .

I was hanging out with liyueh at the Haagen Dazs at Belisa Row, Pulau Tikus yesterday night after dinner when suddenly, we heard a girl screamed extremely loud. Thereafter, a motorcycle sped by. Her scream sent shivers up my spine. Her scream sounded familiar. It sounded like mine.

Flashbacks of the mugging that has happened to me a little less than 2 years ago started flashing right in front of me. It happened at the Pulau Tikus area as well, in one of the alleys just opposite Belisa Row. It was horrible and that incident has always been haunting me, even up till this very day. Absolutely traumatizing. :(

I was lucky that I wasn’t hurt very badly. I was extremely lucky and I thank God for that.

The things people would do to get some cash can be horrifying. I bet they couldn’t care less about the consequences that may occur when they mugged someone in this manner. It is plain murder. They can rot in hell for all I care. *sigh*.

For those who ever so often hangs out at the Pulau Tikus area or any area for that matter, please be more careful. Don’t ever for once think that this would not happen to you. I’ve never thought in a million years that it would happen to me, but it did. Being paranoid about your surroundings when you’re out, especially when you’re alone isn’t a bad idea after all.

Click here & here for the incident I’ve experienced 2 years ago and here for the incident that happened to Rena Cullen earlier this year.

Remember — take extra precautions and be extra careful.

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Published on August 5, 2009 in life and me. 11 Comments

enuff said.

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