When we rejoice over the birth of a new life, we sometimes forget that death is set to be waiting at the end of this life. Dying is a part of being alive.
A lot of us have not been acquainted with Death. In fact, we fear Death. Sometimes we are angry with Death. To be honest, none of us will ever know how it feels like to die, until it actually happen. I’ve heard stories that it is scary, that you will have no control over your body as your soul leaves, that you will still have to make choices even after you die. I mean, I don’t even know how it’s going to feel like if there’s no me, inside me!!
Do I fear death? Hell yea I do. I mean, I wouldn’t want to die now.
Nonetheless, I have been constantly reminding myself that Death is part of Life. I will never know when Death decides to walk up my door, knock on it and say ‘Hey Chiao Ju, it’s time to go’. I’m sure I’ll cry. I’m sure I’ll be sad. I’m sure I’ll grieve for my death. I would definitely need time to do all those things. After I’m done grieving, I’m sure I’ll live my numbered days to its fullest.
Everything happens for a reason. However, I’m learning to accept the fact that sometimes, we will never ever know the reason. I use to ask a lot of why questions about life. I think sometimes I still do. But I’m learning to accept the fact that life is as such. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not bowing down to “this is my crappy life, live with it” concept. No. I believe that certain decisions I make can change the course of my life. Having said that, I’m not going to dwell over searching for the answer to my why question. Sometimes, it’s not all that worth it.
The course I have to undertake today, has everything to do with my past. Past lives I mean. Karma is at play. What goes around, comes back around. Writing all this doesn’t make me a pessimist. It is me learning to accept what life is. How you live your life is all up to you. Yes, karma will interfere once in a while, but again, karma has nothing to do with anyone else but us. We plant those karma seeds. We can’t blame anyone for it.
Oh well. May we have a good week before the Chinese New Year break.
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