Nonetheless, things are coming together in an orderly manner. The switch in the job roles have shown a seemingly positive effect for me at work. Having said that, I still have to strike a balance between work and my life. No, I am not going to sell my soul to the company. Putting a home together can be tough, but things are working out as planned. There’s traveling. There’s a course of events planned for the next couple of months.

And of course, there’s the diversion of watching Russell Peters live in KL.

He was so so good. His performance was totally outstanding. There wasn’t a dull moment. None. There wasn’t a moment where I wasn’t laughing my ass off. Absolutely awesome. So awesome, I wish his show was longer. The 90mins felt wayyyy shorter. Time really flies when you’re having fun! If he ever comes again, I’ll definitely be there again, in a heartbeat!

May is coming to an end (which is super scary). I do wish it would stop for a while. Just for a little while for me to catch my breath.

A holiday would be nice.

Yesterday, as we were walking up the stairs to a bank, we met a lady that is paralyzed. One of her leg is gone. I couldn’t see if she is born that way or it has been amputated later in life. She was using her hands and butt to move herself, slowing inching over to the ATM. The man she was with did not help in anyway. He stood with his arms crossed, watching her from afar.

I wanted to use the ATM as well but I waited for her to pick the ATM she wanted to use and I’ll just use the other one. She asked me if this is the machine to withdraw money. I said yes. I saw as she slowly picked herself up, kneeling in front of the machine, trying to do what she had to do. I was done in a flash and was waiting for ndru to be done.

Suddenly, we heard a cry for help.

“Please, can someone help me. Please.”

There were 5 people in the bank at that time, me included. No one made a move.

“Can someone help me, please.”

I looked away. I was dying to help, but something in me made me stop. I looked outside the bank and found the man she was with went down the stairs, again with arms crossed, waiting for her.

She wasn’t in her best condition. Aside from being paralyzed, it is pretty obvious that she has not showered for days. Her clothing is not good either and there is a chance she may have been an abused victim.

We walked away after we were done. I genuinely feel bad for not helping her. But I was scared that she may just be an act and that I would be harmed for being good. It’s not an excuse, but I really couldn’t bring myself to helping her. Till now, I still feel bad.

I guess I’m not that good of a person after all. I’m still learning. Perhaps it was coz I was judgmental. The man with the crossed arms made me fear her.

I’ve been wondering, if given a chance to turn back time, would I have done differently? What about you? Would you have done different from what I did?

The past 2 weeks have been filled with nothing but great learning and information. Not just in the context of my career, but in the context of life as well. So many things to learn, so many things to note. But it is these life lessons that will make one more knowledgeable and wiser.

Life. It is what it is. In a good way.

p/s: 10 more hours and I’m HOME!

I miss you. So much. <3

12 more days? Hmm…

Russell Peters first. And now The Big Bang Theory. Keep the crazies coming Sheldon.

I totally need a break.

Not the best answer to the question, ‘how do you know he is the one?’. I know. When it comes to love, all you need to do is to strip away the ego, the pride, the self-centeredness, the ‘me’ factor and what is left is how you truly feel. Trusting your gut feelings isn’t always wrong. It doesn’t necessarily mean you are not thinking rationally. Sometimes, it is your subconsciousness trying to speak to you. Nothing wrong with listening to them once in a while.

When the time comes, you will know. At least I knew. It took me a while to realize and to really decide that yes, he is the one for me and I would want to make this relationship work. Ego and pride can get a little overwhelmed at times, because ultimately, we don’t want us to get hurt. Who would want that, right?

I like how certain things in life falls right into place, for some reason, making all those hard work and sacrifices all the more worth while.

So how do you know if he is the one? You just know.

*love*

I just can’t.

It has come to my conclusion that it is indeed something really difficult for one to understand that in life, one of the crucial things one need to take note of, and it is a thing that can and have the power to get you places, is to have a good attitude. Without a good attitude, you are going nowhere. Unless maybe you have an IQ of a genius that it doesn’t really matter anymore if you are an annoying, OCD person like Sheldon in the Big Bang Theory. Your brain is all everyone wants. Otherwise, you are going nowhere if you are rude.

But seriously, does it really take a lot of effort to be nice? To be polite? To be well-mannered? Is it that difficult to a point where it is close to impossible for most humans to embrace it? Or maybe one simply thinks they are too good for anyone but themselves? Or…

You know what, this list could go on forever. I could be asking why until the cow comes home, and I’m still not going to get an answer. Final conclusion to end all of this, maybe it is me.

Besides, who cares really? It’s not that these rude people are going to rule my life. Oh well. Humans.

p/s: If you think you’re smart, I hope you will be in a realization that there will be another human that would be smarter than you. Just a note to those who thinks highly of themselves.